What a wild journey after looking back that is all I can say about this past year and how I have gotten to where I am now. There at times that I forget where I came from or have a blip in life that makes me loose focus momentarily. My friend calls them “speed bumps,” things that sort of get me down and I get to focused on them. He always says, “Remember how far you have come don’t stop and stare at a speed bump in your life.”
Lately I have found myself staring at a speed bump. I was in a short-lived relationship that quickly turned sour with a friend. In the disappointment in myself and with the situation I began focusing all my energies on the lost relationship. Forgetting about my priorities I sadly was too caught up blubbering over my troubles to really be wholeheartedly present to my clients. It was in the middle of a misty eyed weep session that the office phone rang at the mission. Snapped out of my thoughts I answered the phone. On the other end a former client spoke. He was a recovering alcoholic who had attempted suicide and lived. He now lives on his own and is continuing to stay sober.
We chatted for a bit and before I had to cut him off to do night time meds for clients. As I went to hang up he said, “You know you are a blessing and what you do is important.” I paused thanked him and hung up. God had through this client snapped me back into reality. He lifted the haze of my own self wallowing and showed me that the world is so much more and we are part of something bigger than one little moment of hurt. There I was staring at a speed bump when God said, “Quit standing there staring dummy keep moving. I have helped you get too far to stop.”
All of us have those moments when we feel like our little worlds are ending. Looking back often times we can laugh at how over dramatic we were in a particular situation. I would encourage you to not look at the speed bumps that life throws at you. Keep on moving you have come too far.